Isaac

As soon as i figure out how to save most of my LJ entries,

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 22 Sep 2002 23:45:59 GMT

This LJ is going down for good. I just don't have enough time to update or care about it. Think i'm gonna keep my Teen Open Diary blog up and running again. It's finally out of it's 2 year retirement. and so yea.

*sigh...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Sep 2002 01:52:06 GMT

Went with Mai's parents yesterday to drop her off at the airport. Look like she's gone, so i guess i'm single again ^_^. Good thing too. Well not good thig that we're apart, but good ting that... ugh...nm.

After dropped her off, Manuel, Raul, Manuel, Lexie, and I went to Verde. Literally got almost one of everything on each menu. That bread is soooooooo good. Oh baby baby. LOL later on durin gthe night while we were there, Raul was telling me that young chick who works at the front counter kept looking at me when i went in and outside. I didn't believe him, so i just looked back. She turned her head so quick i thought she might of hurt herself. lol that was the up beat high light of the day. Meet up at Carl's house later, and few ppl are there. Yoshi and John are outside, while some chick is changing in the car. hehe I see a titty ^_^!!! Dropped off ppl home, and went home too.

Mai: Thanks for being here ever since i got back from Florida. Your too great, and I hope you come back down here sometime soon. Your too great a person, and I wish you the best. Hope you find true love in Japan. BaiBai

Another Friday.... Upgrade to Benz ^_^

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sat, 14 Sep 2002 10:02:45 GMT

Heh day started out normal. Cept i havn't been afraid for my life goin to Gunn. After what had happened yesterday between Renee & Mark, I was honestly worried that Mark might come to school today packing heat. Well even though he was still kinda pissed, he dealed with it in his own way, and the day went by normally.

After school, picked up Li-Chun and went to MGL. Hadn't been there in awhile, so it was a real surprise seeing as how there was a Disney Rave Tourney. Got there early, not that many ppl there. So showed her around, and she hella killed me in KBM. but i got her back in Light Mode +. Played all the other bemani there, and then just chilled it the rest of the time. More people end up coming, so more fun (^_^) !!! Kept on till the tourney "kinda" started. More ppl are getting there, then I eventually have to get Li-Chun over to SJSU.

Raul calls me up, me, Lexie, Manuel, Anthony, and Raul end up going to see Swimfan. Or at least we were supposed to. Problem. My car begins to break down, and My back tire is rubbing against something. I could smell the rubber of the tire. So i decided it wasn't safe to drive. So cause of the priority, I take a quick shower, hop in the Benz CLK, and head off. OMG THAT CAR IS THE FUCKING SHIT!!! Suond system, speed, everything. I want it!!! Since Lexie is a freshmen, we had to speak w/ her parents to get her to come. Good thing her dad knows me. Mad coincidence i guess. Pick up Everyone, then head over to Century. We get to Century, nothing to really do, so I get on the DDR machine and just play like usual. next thing i know, crowd of 20 some people are watching. It was crazy, but fun. Hehe I also mastered John's 540 kick in Trip Machine. Bad thing though, I snapped my arm out of place in the process. Heard a loud *Crack. and kinda had to slow down. We got to the movies so early, all we did was just go and see the last 5 minutes of most the other movies there. As we're leaving, I see Keren and her friends come in. So that was random too. said sup, and left for awhile since Lexie had to go home before 10:00.

For some reason, we all decided to stop by Laser Quest, even though i got that twitch again. As soon as i walk in, first person i see is Violet. It was actually pretty nice to see her lookin and doin well. I thought she would of been off to college by now though.

Saw Daniel, Simon, and Meno drive by. They had never seen the Benz before, so we had a quick race down El Camino. I Smoked Simon's car, end of story. As we drop Lexie off, theres some party goin up near Carl's house. See Kai and he invites us over. Drop off Lexie and go by real quick. Everybody is drunk as fuck and just standing outside smoking. Nobody wanted to be inside cause so yea. picked up some drinks and left. I had to be the designated driver though so bleh. T_T.

Get back to Century, and we end up watching the last 20 mins of the movie we payed 8 dollars to see. Swimfan was pretty funny. I wouldn't go see it again. Movie ends, and I go play teh DDR one more time for a crowd before i leave. Keren see's and in the end, I end up with her #!!! YAY!! HOORAY FOR EARTH!!!

Thats about it.. The night ended with me cleaning out the Benz, and a totally hurt left arm. OMG it still hurts. Oh yea that reminds me. I saw Kevin's Anytown shirt at MGL today, and that brought back alot of memories. If anyone didn't see that paperback journal entry i wrote, go read the real version of it here:

http://www.geocities.com/jiggaro012/Anytown.htm

Happy 9/11 ^_^!!!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Wed, 11 Sep 2002 07:07:45 GMT

Wow it feels kinda like X-mas. cept without all the presents. guess it's the feeling of knowing your still alive. Something to think about.

whoa he survived...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Tue, 10 Sep 2002 03:11:58 GMT

That guy who got shot down the street from my house actually survived. It looked really bad too. I guess anything can happen. I tried telling my dad this shit would happen eventually. guess it dosn't really matter till it hits close to home.

Another shooting, another dead negro in EPA... one of dem Saturdays...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Mon, 09 Sep 2002 02:35:04 GMT

Woke up early to go get some shit done. As i'm passing by the neighbor hood liquor store right down the street from my house, there is a big scene over at the liquor store. One car has bashed in windows, police put tape everywhere, One man is lying on the cement with a bloody white blanket over his head, and number tags are lined up on the floor. Everyone drove by hella slow cause this wasn't something we get to always see fresh as it happens. It was crazy....

Went over to my old house near the EPA village. It was surprising how much smaller it was. when your a kid, you invasion everything to be so much bigger than it really is. Just to go back to my first house really brings back memories. My aunt was getting the house ready for new ppl to move in, then my dad arrives later on and they get into a fight about how much the house should be and how much should be invested into it. I get bored and leave. Pick up Raul and Manuel and head out to the Art & Wine festival. Manuel ends up leaving leaving me and Raul Hungry. We eventually wander off to Verde, and Nicole and Ellen are there... that was the most akward moment of the day. I should of payed more attention to the twitch in my cheek before i decided to go there.

Leave Verde, go work for grandparents for abit, go see Mai and a movie at Century 16. Had to see signs again! LOL that movie is the poo!!! she jumped at least 3 times. I wasn't helping any either! "Oh you can open your eyes. Nothing is gonna happen."

anyway, it was a crazy day. thats it.

It was like one of those High School Movies!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 08 Sep 2002 03:47:25 GMT

OMG!!! This has to be the best Friday I've had all year!!!

First, skool gets out. Pick up Li-Chun and we go up to Cupertino Village. We end up goin to see this guy who she works for who happens to be making his own Magazine called SAM! It's like a asian version of Maxim, and from what i saw, it looks like it could really go places if they hurry up and publich it. The guy even offered me a job, or a chance to model for the magazine if i slim down in the waist and turn 18 soon. Li-chun seemed pretty annoyed that she had to do work on Friday, but I just looked around at all the pictures ^_^! We ended up goin back to Cupertino village with Sam trying to find Li-Chun's sister. sam got bored and left. Li-Chun's sister eventually got there, then we ended up goin back to Palo Alto where i dropped em off. The though of SAM (the magazine) was stuck in my head though!!! I thought it was koo how he said Grace and Nicole might have a place in the magazine.

Call up Mai, she's goin up to San Fran to see her relatives, leaving me and the guys to do nothing but smoke out. Call up Raul and Manuel, and we originally plan on goin to a movie, but it's a good thing we turned the corner to Karl's house, cause thats where we spent most the rest of the night. Geneva, Mark, Lexie, and Karl were jus chillen it out in the front. Geneva drove my car while me, Mark, and Lexie sat on different parts of the car. I got the back, they got the hood. Geneva messed up though and ran over Marks toe. LOL HAHAHAHAHA!!! we were all laughing and he was cussing at us in pain! We got back to Karl's then wejust turned up my system and chilled out in front some more.

Eventually, Shy, Yoshi, James, Andrew, Adam, Tim, and about 4 other people pull up in front of Karl's. Then it was on. They told us about how they were gonna go bash on some freshmen at Gunn trying to be pimp's on their mountain bikes. and how teh police just got there. So we kinda figured that meant the police would come by our place later. HEHE Lexie is hella cute and sweet. *sigh if only she wasn't a freshman... Geneva got mad at me for getting a little too close to her, but i kinda had it comin. Mai wouldn't of even gotten on my case that bad.

nothing happened!!!!

Ryan comes out later and we all start smoking on some cloves. those are the shit!!! i think i'm about to get hooked. I hope not though. Renee was inside, but something was wrong. we didn't find out till later. It was a little weird.

The neighbors called the police on us so we had to duck out. But they came back around as we were leaving, so we had to sit and talk for abit. Nothing happened and we were let off. The cop didn't seem all there actually. So Mark, Lexie, Karl, Manuel, Raul, and I start walking to Jack in the box, when Ryan calls. Renee had to go home, so Mark took her home and everyone else hopped into my car, and we went to Jack in the box.

Goddamn!!! Everyone was there! Stoners, Rich girls, North Side Mexicans, it was like a big reunion. Even saw ppl from Alta Vista havn't seen since JLS! Eventually, Hella more people come. Greg, Travis, jus some more people from College. the head count was about 25 before we left. We just took up the entire Jack in the Box parking Lot, and ppl were getting mad. So some of us had to leave. Some of us went to Happy Donuts, Others to Gunn, and the rest to a house party down Louis. The party was a kegger, so i had to leave cause i'm the designated driver. Eventually got back to Jack.

We hung out there for rest of the time talking and smoking cloves. Then we looked at the burnt down building across the street and laughed. Later Lexie comes out so I chill w/ her for abit. Then Geneva see's and gets hella mad at me telling me "She's my responsibility! Don't taint her!" I could understand where she was coming from, but she knows i'm a good boy and wouldn't cheat on Mai! Andrew came by with some guy and Nathan. Then we talked about how we hated eachothers races, while Marta and Melissa stood in the back listening and i guess taking it pretty seriously. the employees even started looking at us. Then we all laughed and everyone went back to normal. Geneva had to start heading home, so i took her and Lexie back to Kar's house so they could pick up her car and jett out. They left, so i went back to Jack's. smoked more, then left.

Holy god tonite was sooooo fun. How come High school kids don't do this all the time? And now that i think of it, i smoked more last night then i had ever smoked in one day. I might be getting addicted....*scared!!!

Moved back to teen open diary.com....

IDS17@hotmail.com — Thu, 05 Sep 2002 00:01:38 GMT

Cause i'm spreading out more. I would recommend some do the same if they havn't already.

YAY!!! the new speakers and MP3/CD player are in!!! i like looking at the pretty pictures and almost hitting the car in front of me. Fun fun fun!!!

*sigh...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Sep 2002 10:39:38 GMT

Worked on plumbing so we I could make food, then went out to see Signs w/ some ppl. kinda a spur the moment type thing... Those ppl in EPA better put my stereo in tomorrow, or i'm a... do something!!!

Happy Hardcore Remixes are Bomb!!!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Sep 2002 10:56:48 GMT

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When i'm lost
Will you run
Will you come find me?
Can you find the time?

Will you ring,
Will you call,
Could you shout for me?
Can you spare the time?

If you look like a book
Then you will read me,
You can read the lines.

If I run and I fall
I know you'll be waiting,
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random friday night

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sat, 31 Aug 2002 09:05:02 GMT

Tonite was random. Mai wanted to drop by the gunn dance, so we did. for like 20 mins and left. Skool dances are getting alot more worse... i don't understand why... anyway, afterwards went shopping. at Great Mall. It was closing hella soon so i didn't see a purpose in that. So just chilled it for abit not really doin anything, then came home. Then I get a call from Raul telling me to call him back at a blocked number. So if it was something important, my bad. THEN drop by the fremont high dance since scotty keep telling me to go. It was boring as fuck there too, so after it was over, went to SVGL since it's like 4 minutes away. played, and came home. the end... I'm just ready for tomorrow so i can have the stuff put in teh car... *sits unpatiently

Help! I think i'm dying..... (and first week of skool)

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sat, 31 Aug 2002 00:43:36 GMT

it's been a week from today that i've reduced my food intake to ONE MEAL a day... It's not cause i'm on a diet, i seriously need help....

Anyway, Skool is fun!!! I LUB BEING TEH SENIOR!!! i know i'mma sound like a child molester for this, but some of those frosh look really daaaamn fine... ok i feel really ashamed... thx alot John... >_<. My classes are a little too easy, cept for the math class. American Dream is fun cause hella ppl i know in there. and Ms. Bissel is the teacher, so thats like a double homerun right there. I got the T.A job for Graphic Design so that would really look good on the transcript.

First dance is tonite, but since i don't like seeing small freshman babies freak eachother, I guess tonite's a good night for me and Mai time. But this time i just have to get home the same day.... I would also like to thank the mexican for coming back with a full supply. THANK YOU!!! *sigh... 2 more weeks... then i'm single again.... *cry cry... It was good while it lasted. goddamn frosh.... I'M NO CHILD MOLESTER!!! thx for burning that in my head John....

What did i do with an extra $150?

IDS17@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Aug 2002 06:17:44 GMT

went out and bought this. http://www.sonyericsson.com/T68/

hahaha cleaning out MP3 closet...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Aug 2002 06:13:48 GMT

#2 thing that pisses me off is BEING CALLED A LIAR!!!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Aug 2002 01:21:34 GMT

OK who the fuck is seniorta something, AND WHAT THE FUCK DOES SHE HAVE TO DO WITH ME?! I don't ever give people reasons to not trust me, but if ppl think i'm just making shit up, go ahead and think i'mma just another lying Nigger!! It dosn't matter to me!!!

NEW SOUND SYSTEM!!!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Tue, 27 Aug 2002 06:37:49 GMT

bought all the parts, will have in car on saturday afternoon!!! SOOOOO HAPPY!!!

Songs that reflect me. (in order)

IDS17@hotmail.com — Fri, 23 Aug 2002 17:18:56 GMT

"Blurry"

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

[Chorus]

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

[Chorus]

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

Musiq Soulchild
Halfcrazy

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
la la

Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (yeah)

I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on

oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know (oh yeah yeah)
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together yeah

And my mind's gone half crazy (oh) cause I can't leave you alone (I'm going half crazy baby)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me (oh) holding on (over you)
Said my mind's gone half crazy (yeah) cause I can't leave you alone (and I just don't know)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (said I just don't know what to do now)
we used to chill (yeah) we used to hang
we used to do we used to do some many things together (yeah)
yeah yeah yeah yeah
oh oh
yeah
oh oh oh

Ginuwine
Only When Ur Lonely

You put pressure on me
Anyway you wanted me
I was there for you
Undeniably
Time over and time again
You shut me out
I thought I was your man
I kept it real with you
But you was fake with me

As I close my eyes
I start thinking things
Is this love real love
And all that it brings
When I close my eyes
Only you I see
With another man
This is killing me

[Chorus:]
I am your man
But Only When Ur Only
If I was to bounce
That's when you'd want me
I am your man
But Only When Ur Only
You say its not the same
But I love you only

My heart got broken
When my heart got opened
Repeatedly:.you said you needed me
You cheated me
I'm tired of being all alone
Since you won't call me on the phone
I've got it together now I'm gone
lone gone:..listen

As I close my eyes
I start thinking things
Is this love real love
And all that it brings
When I close my eyes
Only you I see
With another man
This is killing me

[Chorus]

I'm far gone? No more using me you won't hurt me
I can't let that slide, no more using me you won't hurt all my pride

[Chorus]

Oooh:.. Oooh::
All about
that's means if I wanna leave
you would want me
Every single night:baby
Listen

I am your only man
Every night Every morning
right by my side
C'mon and call me
Why you won't come back
You tell me you busy baby
If its like that
Won't you let me know
Won't you let me know baby
C'mon:. You can be real with me
If I can get real with you
All I want is the real baby
All you gotta do is call out my name
You know I 'll be there for you
You keep me running
Oooh baby you got me sprung baby
Don't have to think about it
All you gotta do
Is think of me: think of Ginuwine
and I'll [echoes] be right there for you
Oooh:Oooh: Oooh:. Baby:..

lol I need to M.O.B

IDS17@hotmail.com — Fri, 23 Aug 2002 17:11:06 GMT

If you don't know what it means, ur not ol'skool enough!!

Anyway, I Think it's really time i stopped living in the past. And what I mean by the past, i mean from March on. Thats when things started falling apart. Then come around May, with the whole Ellen thing, i knew this poo was about to hit the fan sometime soon. I should of followed my gut feeling and NOT date her. But how could i refuse?.. next things, CARS CARS!! It's costing too much money to maintain! No way i'm giving it up, but if i don't get my transmission fixed, I will literally die... (maybe not the worst thing)

But anyway, talked with some friends last night about how it used to be. Like before March. Before the age of innocence thing was lost. And I realize, This is gonna be the best skool year ever! This oughta be fun.

YeS I'M CureD!!!

IDS17@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Aug 2002 06:43:24 GMT

It's been awhile since i've REALLY been happy, but it's slowly starting to come back.

1. Because i'm starting to realize certain things bout myself (self discovery) (nothing perverted)

2. For all the people who put me down, there is always a bigger amount of ppl to pick me back up.

3. Skool starts Tuesday, so that means 9 more months closer to getting into that UC college i wanted to since 9th grade!

4. Must stop being so kind. It's making the evil bug in my ass grow bigger.

Anyway, My cousin peter is over for a few days, or was. he's goin back tomorrow to So. Cal, so i'll have the house back to myself once again! And once skool starts, i'll have the house to myself more. Just need to get another job. This staffing job is fun don't get me wrong, but i need something more challenging. Gonna go see a movie next week with group of friends from San Fran next Friday so me is excited bout that! It's about time they came out to visit me insted of the other way around.

DAMMIT I JUST WISH NEXT WEEK WOULD COME!!!

With the end of this coming week, is also the end of the bullshit i went through during summer.

If i could describe summer, I would say it was that song Half Crazy! or something.

Yesterday...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Tue, 20 Aug 2002 20:29:53 GMT

Fun day! got up early and ran a few errands for mom. then when i was done, it was off to Santa Cruz. Picked up Mil and her friend Stephanie. Came back and met up with Grace at MGL. Then for no reason, we all went to the Great Mall to take studio pics. It was a really long process but yea they came out good. Went to some korean place for dinner, i was disappointed though. It wasn't the all you can eat place like the Palace in Sunnyvale. That place is just the shit!

We got the pictures developed and got a whole bunch of copies. I liked 3 of em cept for one. The photographer had me tilt my head sideways so i looked really ummmm.... dumb. They laughed and laughed and i just stood there till they were done. Then went back to MGL for no reason. MGL is only fun if there are ppl there. well actually saw Ahmed there for a second, but he disappeared hella quick. Next we all said our goodbyes and Mil, Steph, and me headed back on the road. They watched Blade 2 while i just drove along. It's nice using my car as some type of surround sound movie theater. jut plus my laptop into the tape deck, full sound. Dropped them both off home, then came by peggy's house real quick to see my cousin thats visiting out here for abit.

Got home and my dad bitched at me about how i shouldn't be having fun. I should be at home insted doing nothing with my life and wiping his ass after every word he says. What a dumbass. Still pissed off i have to do a goddamn DJ gig for him saturday. That broke ass negro hasn't payed me for at least 5 gigs. so he owes me at least $750 or more. if i could get that money back, then I would feel hella good. seeing as how i wasted money on someone who didn't appreciate it.

Dam ncan't wait for skool to start back up. gimme something better to do than stay at home and do yard work. Still hoping skool won't start so i can still have gas money for goin to Sac Town.

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Aug 2002 09:19:06 GMT

Sometimes, it is better to talk about stuff then it is to just be pissed. Even if only a little is talked about, a little does help. thx Nicole.

important quotes

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Aug 2002 07:56:59 GMT

hate you black bastards!

I hate your black skin!

I hate your black pants!

I hate black pepper!

I hate black keys on the piano!

I hate my gun cause it's black!

and most importantly, I hate that black ass Wesley Snipes!

-Bernie Mac

Urge to Kill...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Aug 2002 06:44:20 GMT

RISING

RISING

RISING

RISING!!!

after a week in Jacksonville....

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Aug 2002 05:00:57 GMT

I got an extra $100, and a few near outfits. I feel accomplished...

first update is jacksonville.
I was already in a pissed off mood when i got there. My plan was delayed for about 12 hours... and my flights and time i was on the plane equaled to about 8 hours. so thats about 20 hours doing airport related stuff. Got to jacksonville at 2:00 in the morning, (was supposed to get there at 4:00 in the afternoon) and did nothing. It was fun seeing my brothers in their ghetto fabulous part of town. it's like a 20 mile wide East Palo Alto. It was so fucking hot. it hate hot weather!!! so i accidently ran a mouse over in my brother's car. that helped release a little stress. Got to see crazy ass uncle Ricky. he's koo though. like how he sings "Have a Cup of Coffee, Have a Cup of Coffee, Have a Cup of Coffee with Me!!!" whenever. It's funny cause he's so relaxed. wish i could be as relaxed as him. He also gave me a lecture about Bertha. (his word for fucked up women) and we both agreed on alot of stuff. Went to D&B with nephew, and yea. OMG I PASSED FOR 22!!! I grew my beard out and wore some dark clothing. Me, my brother, and Uncle Ricky went to some weird Bar and just chilled. There the waitress accidently got my 2 free cups of beer or something so i felt happy! ^_^!!! ummm what else happened? Bought some stuff, hung out, it was a nice way to get away from all the things and ppl that piss me off sooooo much....

Today, got home, was hella tired.
NOOOO WHYYY!!!! Tara left today! awwww if only i knew ahead of time..... oh well. got some time to see her today before she left, and OMG she's so fucking lucky. How can some girl in HS live on her own in a house paying rent on such a tight budget? Shit i wanna live on my own too. went and bought Tara a Tare and that was about it. went home after that and stayed bored up till now. looking foward to Monday though if my dad dosn't manage to fuck that up too.

AhhhHAAAhhhaaaaa.....Rar!!! ok i'm better...

IDS17@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Aug 2002 09:49:52 GMT

whew it's been a shitty week! been trying to run around and do too much at once! not any time for myself this week, but i guess this comin week it's just me and my 2 brothers for a full week. It's about time i just had some time to get away from all the shit that pisses me off in the world....or more like in California! WHY HAS THIS BEEN LIKE THE MOST AKWARD, ( best word for it w/o saying too much) SUMMER EVER! If I went back to skool and tried to tell someone, nobody would believe me. But there are some things that people don't really need to know what happens.

Yea just bought IIDX 6th Style today, but won't have time to play it till I touch down in Florida. I'm surprised my shitty job has been making me so much money. I don't even work that many hours... working for staffing engineering is the shit!!! GRRRR i want to email ppl when i get back, but that white slave master of a father will probably have me get ready for that goddamn dance i gotta do after i get back! I HATE BEING DJ!!! I'M A SHITTY ONE AT THAT TOO!!! I HAVN'T BEEN PAYED FOR 4 GIGS!!! YOU OWE ME $1,200 OLD MAN!!!

Speaking of music, I still don't know what a new good search agent is. Soulseek was the newest one i got, but don't know how to make it fully work.. too lazy downloading Powerpuff Girl episodes off Kazaa. I need new Jpop, but i've been waaaay to lazy to keep up with everything. I need just one big update week. Newest japanese album i bought: Para Para Max! (THIS ALBUM IS THE FUCKING SHIT!!!)
Newest J-pop album downloaded: Sana - Sanative! (it's ok)

Mil says santa cruz is boring. But i'm actually starting to have fun chillin it there. It's a new place. And if i'm lucky, i'll be moving soon too like Peggy says. Can't wait to try a new place. finally a chance to start over. Even though there isn't much left.

OK i've bitched too long. One more real week of summer vacation.... It's almost about time to leave. Just hope some guy dosn't decide to crash my plane into another NY building. This oughta be interesting.

P.S: when the hell is Tara getting back?